In September, we started with 80 in the group. I’m sad to say there are about 40 left in the program. Their reasons? Well, there are many; some had to tend to family emergencies, others lacked financial means, and then there were those who merely did not get it. There were some who cancelled themselves out and those who were counseled out. Yup. The Department Chair had “the talk” with them. They did not fit the program or the program did not fit their style.
No one will really know why they didn’t return. Maybe it was the “Hokie, Pokie” or the Macarena. Or maybe it was all the research jargon or missed assignments. Whatever their reason, I do wish them well and they’ll be missed.
In the meantime, while they are pondering their next steps, we continue the journey and it is getting HARD!! As I finish off my assignments and begin to prepare for the March practicum (the fourth one and probably the most toughest one yet) I want to say thank you to all of you who continue to cheer for me. This is not easy.
At times, I find myself slightly above water breathing enough to get through the next reading, journal, writing assignment, or webinar. I have struggled to learn the research terminology and I have wrestled with my breakthroughs. I find myself squeezing seconds out of minutes, canceling on my friends, enduring long nights, and missing my morning runs. YES! I miss my runs!!! This is a lonely road of writing and self-reflection.
This is a huge elephant to eat and I've been told to take a bite at a time and chew slowly. I wish someone would blindfold me while I attempt this giant. A pat on the back, a high five, or just a simple “Way to go!” means the world to me right now. Who knows? Maybe that’s one of the reasons why they didn’t return. A lack of support can do anyone in when they are faced with challenges.
If you know anyone in school (any type of school) give them an encouraging word or two. It truly does make a difference.
Thank you!
PEACE & GOD BLESS
Crazy. I was going to write about the same kind of stuff! Hang in there Maria! You'll make it to the end...with a belly full of elephant!
ReplyDelete"Eating the Elephant"...I like that, never heard of that one. Makes me think of what I'm doing from going from dj to producer, there's so much to learn, I get overwhelmed and just wanna quit. But I like that, "Eating the Elephant", one bite at a time...yup, that works for me too, I'll add that to my "list". :) BTW, keep kickin azz at school, 40 down, and your still standing!! BAMM!! :D
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