Whoa, whoa, whoa feelings!!

Have you ever asked yourself who you really are? Well, we’ve been taking different assessments in my program. These assessments are suppose to help us understand our being. The goal is to get to the true essence of our soul and to fully understand what makes us happy, sad, upset, frustrated, annoyed, mad, angry, AND why we feel what we feel. You know, that annoying root of the true feeling.

For example take this water cooler conversation I had with a colleague:

“They’re just rude!”

Ok, but how are they rude?

“They don’t acknowledge me when I walk in the office! That’s rude!”

When they don’t acknowledge you when you walk in the office how does that make you feel?

“It''s not about what I feel it’s just that THAT is rude behavior! Don’t you think?”

Maybe they’re in an intense conversation.

“Well maybe, but they should at least say hi.”

If they said hi to you would you still think they are rude?

“Well, not really. I just feel they ignore me.”

So you feel ignored when people don’t acknowledge you?

“Yes.” (ding! ding! ding!! I wanted to say this sooooo bad)

If they acknowledged you and said hi to you would you still consider them rude?

“Well, not too much.”

What else would make the situation better?

“Just saying hi and include me in their conversation.”

The conversation continued, but ultimately my colleague had a need that was not being fulfilled. She dismissed her feelings and pointed the finger at the other two people for her own discomfort.

How many times does this happen to us in our everyday life? How many times do we blame others for our unhappiness or our discomfort? I’m not immune and have done this myself.

I remember being so unhappy with life and blaming others for my unhappiness. I was notorious for saying, “If only (name) would be more (adjective) towards me, my life would be so much better.”

I was allowing my future to be controlled by others. This isn’t the case anymore. Thank God!! The assessments have really opened my eyes to who I really am BUT most importantly I understand the root of my feelings. Roots that go waaaaaayyy back to when I was young. I can’t do anything about the past, but I can do something about the “RIGHT NOW” and take control of my being by acknowledging my feelings and understanding where does it stem from.

This is not an easy process. It takes commitment to being honest with yourself, lots of reflection, and so much more prayer.

I pray everyday to God to guide me along this journey. I’m grateful to Him for allowing me to feel the peace in my heart. This is the feeling I strive for everyday in my life.

PEACE, LOVE and GOD BLESS!!